I've written plenty about how I don't do well when I'm stressed/ upset/ disappointed/ pissed/ etc. And I don't even have to begin to explain what kind of effect those negative emotions have.
But the good emotions are hard to deal with too. Today was fantastic. I'll post more later, I'm leaving soon, but I'm going out for drinks with a small group tonight including A, with whom things have been going fantastically, and tomorrow night I'm going out again with different people, but A's coming too. Another personal milestone I guess: I've reached out and made my owns friends without BFF's help and someone other than BFF invited me out.
And I'm really happy and excited for this weekend and everything just feels great now, but even that is all too much. I don't know how to handle it. Except to eat.
Goal for this weekend: spend more time thinking about what I'm feeling and why, make things simpler (I take "overthinking everything" to a whole new level), and enjoy the time with friends without worrying about food and everything.
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