This is the first month in a while where I didn't spend the night before coming up with a totally fantastic it's-going-to-work-this-time diet plan. I didn't even think about it. In fact, I stopped writing down how much I was eating/ calorie information whatnot and had late-night snickers and cheese sandwiches because I wanted to.
I did something kind of dumb yesterday. It has to do with A. And it really bothered me and I was almost but not really crying on the bus and I think BFF thought I was upset because she had to cancel plans for coffee but I couldn't really tell her what it was really about. Anyways, I was thinking the whole time that last night was going to be horrible and I'd probably end up cutting again and that it would just be the worst Halloween ever (Halloweens in America were always really good for me, which isn't something I can say about every holiday).
But I was actually alright and the yarn I ordered came in the mail so I just spent the whole night crocheting, watching Sailor Moon and Downtown Abbey, and talking to people. And maybe waiting for a few different texts, only one of which actually came, but that wasn't too bad. And I looked back on tumblr to what happened on Halloween last year and I realized that yesterday couldn't have gotten any worse than that. I didn't even realize that it was Halloween last year that kind of marked the start of my huge downward spiral. Whoops.
The point is, yesterday ended up being good. Today is going to be awesome. I just had breakfast and crocheted (I really want to get this scarf done for tomorrow) while my mom helped me study for my history exam and now I'm going to cook a "proper vegetarian meal" with my Oma and see if I can keep it vegan without her noticing (just for kicks ;)).
November, I am ready.
Keine Kommentare:
Kommentar veröffentlichen