Posting early because I am 500% done with today.
I pretty much spent all day binging. I don't know if it's still because of what happened Friday with A or last night with my sister or the fact that I've been gaining and just feeling overall disgusting lately. But since we have no groceries I went through two packs of toffifee, a chocolate bar, and I don't know how much bread and rice. And I keep telling myself that I'm doing well because I'm not purging but that's only a small part of it. Granted, that's sort of the thin line separating me being "ohkay" and "not-oh-fucking-kay" because I know that if/ once I do purge I'm going to completely spiral back down, but I can't keep going how I have been lately.
Mondays have always been my lucky days because they mean a new start. I'm hoping that that goes for tomorrow.
I need some inspiration to get back on track. Tumblr isn't cutting it recently. I have some free periods with A tomorrow; maybe something will come of it.
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