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My emotions are all over the place lately. One period I'm happy and talkative and laughing and the next I'm on my own in the corner with my headphones in and music up. Mostly I'm happy when I have someone to sit with and talk to or listen to or just feel like I'm not awkwardly intruding from the outside.
A is a completely different story. The logical part of me, that thinks guys are straightforward and all this drama J is trying to start is nothing more than something to laugh at, knows that there's something there and I should just invite him over Sunday, end of story. But there's also that other part of me, the one that asks why any guy could ever find any reason to bother looking twice in my direction let alone hold a conversation with me or why on top of everything I have to deal with a bitch who's made it her mission to turn as many people against me as possible, that makes me feel like I'm just embarrassing myself and should claim early retirement and start looking for cats.
If you haven't noticed, I'm also kind of tired right now. And bored on the bus. And listening to sappy love songs. Right.