Love you too, BFF.

[Since a friend found a blog of mine before, I've been really paranoid about using names. Even though if the people I write about found this they'd probably know exactly who I'm referring too, it seems like it would be easier for them to find it in the first place if I used their names. I don't know if that's rational or not, but so be it.]

BFF has a boyfriend. Another friend of hers actually set the two up a few months ago and now they're publicly in a relationship (I don't know how long they've actually been together... A week ago she asked me about which dates- 10.10.12, 11.10.12, 12.10.12- looked better in print. She said it was for a dumb conversation and at the time I didn't want to pry because I thought she was talking with a different guy who I was actually interested in, but yea. Wow. Point is, they've probably been together a little longer).

This is going to be a problem for me personally because I already know I'm going to get jealous and won't want to "share" her. But that's a personal thing that I'm going to have to deal with and I don't think I'll get too angry at her about it. Or if I do, I'll be able to differentiate between the emotionally unstable part of me and the logically sound part of me. So I can deal with that.

What kind of pissed me off was that she didn't say a word to me. Every time he came up in conversation she only talked about how he was so annoying and she didn't invite him to our party because he'd just be annoying. She acted differently around him though- letting him hold her hand and posting little hearts on his wall- and I was actually going to ask her about that when we saw each other again on Monday because I noticed her seeming really into this other guy (I'll call him A- he'll definitely be coming up again) and nobody wants to consider their best friend a slut, but it was getting hard not to.
But I wanted to ask her about it in a non-accusing way and now I don't even have the chance because BAM! I got to see on facebook that they're together now. Which is the worst way of finding out.

I tried not to let it bother me too much and figured a lot of the worrying was how things between she and I would change and I mean, it's not like I've been keeping her updating on the guys I like or talk to. So I sent her a text, something like "what's going on here? I thought he was soooo annoying :p No matter, I'm happy for you guys :***"

She's been on and seen it, but no reply. Which means I won't get one. And THAT really pisses me off.

The thing is, she has enough friends that if I get mad at her she won't really care. I'll be the one trying to find anyone to hang out with during breaks and she'll have plenty of other people. And considering this other girl, J, has already been spreading shit about me (another long story) I don't want that coming from two directions.

So I'm just going to try to make it through today. Yesterday ended really well and today has potential and tomorrow I can deal with BFF.