23. October

Well this was unusual. My day started off alright but school only made it worse... and then it got better once I got home o.o

Everything was pretty normal and whatnot, until we had a pop quiz in math and there were only two questions. The calculation part I could do no problem, but then we had to define something and I know I butchered that. There go almost half my points. Then lunch plans feel through with BFF (not a big deal, just disappointing) and we had a pop quiz in earth sciences and I wasn't there last week so I knew nothing. There's a decent chance the teacher won't count it for me though- fingers crossed. And I couldn't really catch a break with A and just nothing happened, good or bad. But since everything is either all good or all bad, nothing happening is generally bad. Needless to say, but the bus ride home I wasn't in the best of moods.

And then a few things happened. I went grocery shopping (oddly enough, it always calms me down) and decided I was in the mood for pizza. So I bought an oven kit and it is now sitting out all baked and sliced and ready for me to take to school tomorrow. Yum. Two of my friends found FYB on tumblr (and are probably reading this, based on the fact that the page view count jumped by a ton at that time... hi guys ^^) and at first I kind of thought it would be weird knowing who exactly is reading this, it's not a big deal at all anymore. I still hardly believe that the stats thing on here works properly because no way am I getting as many daily hits as it says I am >>

The one thing is that my mood improved once I got home, which is odd, but the rest of my family was out, which might explain it. And sure enough, as soon as my mom got home we got into an argument a few minutes later and the anxiety started coming back. But it wasn't a big deal either and it's all good now and we have plans to grab coffee or go to the gym at some point this weekend, so all's well that ends well. But I'm still not sure how to deal with being home. I don't have any problems with my family and we're still eating dinner together, I'm making it a point to talk to my siblings and my mom, the same stuff we've been doing. But somehow I start getting either pissed or anxious more easily and that's bothering me.

And my next appointment with my therapist is in over two weeks. Lovely.

On an unrelated note, I'm thinking of inviting A to carve pumpkins with us on Sunday. Because I mean. That would be cute. And fun.